tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-153484572024-03-07T04:05:10.057-06:00Bombadee's GardenTending children, wild and sweet.Jennyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00137018447917798078noreply@blogger.comBlogger1763125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-15348457.post-81825120684415638882024-01-29T13:37:00.002-06:002024-01-29T13:37:28.092-06:002024<p>I've been asked to be in an art show. I'm scouring the blog fore this one photo I know I have but can't locate, or I might just take a new one and work from it. I've been painting from photos lately. People I love. That's where I started. I suppose I'll move onto stories I love or ideas I love. Anyway... Maybe I can post the painting here when I'm done. :)</p>Jennyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00137018447917798078noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-15348457.post-19353772653376663962023-01-02T17:59:00.000-06:002023-01-02T17:59:00.276-06:00It's been a minute<p>Updating for the sake of keeping the blog alive. Things are good. I'm really looking forward to this year. Not much else I'd like to share. Cheers to 2023! </p>Jennyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00137018447917798078noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-15348457.post-41378787639750744052019-12-25T21:19:00.002-06:002019-12-25T21:19:45.849-06:00The very last bitWhen all the meat is gone<br />
and there's nothing left<br />
but dry white bone,<br />
you can still break it to pieces<br />
and make a wish.<br />
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Jennyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00137018447917798078noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-15348457.post-35018230195967273572019-12-14T14:37:00.003-06:002019-12-14T14:37:49.267-06:00How I'm Doing these Dark DaysI've filled my living room with fairy lights. <br />I've filled my studio with music. <br />I've filled myself with healthful food.<br />I've filled my calendar with family and friends.<br />
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The kid made me a beautiful poem and illustration and he saved it up for Thanksgiving each day bursting at the seems with the news he had something for me that I could see on Thanksgiving Day. I really needed that this week. This kid! <3 br=""><br />**<br /><br />I'm rediscovering Kurt Elling today. I'd forgotten how much I liked him.<br /><br />**<br /><br />I'm in a weird little fragile place in life these days. But hopeful.<br /><br />**<br /><br /></3>Jennyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00137018447917798078noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-15348457.post-16821332149320137042019-06-12T09:53:00.000-05:002019-06-12T10:02:57.525-05:00All the Music was too bigYesterday I woke up with big feelings. It was one of those days where the sky seemed extra blue and the heartbreaks of the world cut extra deep. I made coffee and put music on and every song had notes that traveled through me, words that swam and around in my head reminding me of something and there I was standing in the kitchen next to the microwave with my eyes leaking happiness. <br />
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I exclaimed to my internet "all the music is too big today" knowing I couldn't keep crying all day with every song. Sure enough ya'll came through with a some things that sufficed, my favorite being the "Brian Eno - Thursday Afternoon the 61 minute version." I ran it through twice, providing a beautiful background to get lost in illustrating and no particular sentiment to magnify. The day went on fast and fun with kids and mom at the studio making clay things and I'd forgotten how soft and squishy my insides were until we landed at the Sinnissippi Bandshell sitting among the populace waiting for the <a href="https://regiment.org/" target="_blank">Phantom Regiment</a> to take the stage.<br />
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You see, I grew up on the south side of Rockford near the Park-it-mark-it on Kishwaukee and some summer nights, while standing in the front yard one could hear the Phantom Regiment drum line practicing in the distance. And on one of those trips to the grocery with my mom where we begged her for candy, I instead begged for a grocery store toy and procured a sparkly white baton with rubber ends and I remember standing in the front yard pretending to be a majorette. I'm sure I put on my shortest shorts, tallest boots, and tied my grubby summer t-shirt in a knot at the belly and marched around twirling my grocery store baton occasionally catching myself in the shin with the end. I think I spent a whole summer, maybe two, dreaming about marching in a parade.<br />
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I try to explain all of this nostalgia to my eight year as we wait for the band to take the stage. He is extremely uninterested and wants nothing more than to run around the playground pretending to be Spider man. I beckon him nearer the stage with ice cream sandwiches so I can feel the drum line in my chest, the whole while poking the kid telling him he can play drums like that if he keeps up his lessons. He was nodding and looking wistfully back towards the playground. <br />
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For a day that started with me exclaiming all the music was too big, it seemed sort of funny to be watching a 150 piece band play my favorite memories so loud neighbors can hear it for miles. My eyes leaked again when we finally made it to the playground at the end of the concert and the kids clamored all over themselves for a turn on one of the three playground xylophones, each kid, including mine, trying to mimic the fast arms of the Regiment Xylophonists who played in the front of the band. Well done Rockford, well done.Jennyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00137018447917798078noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-15348457.post-61843537651801575052019-03-21T21:25:00.001-05:002019-03-21T21:25:30.720-05:00I'm no longer the caretaker of these things...I was on the floor of the kitchen cleaning out the very back on the cupboard when a switch flipped in my brain. I've been telling myself I am not my things and if I toss something with sentimental value it doesn't toss the memory just the thing. It's something I struggle with as a collector of art and books, I could easily grow a hoard of curiosities as large as a car pretty quickly, in fact right this minute there's a 12 foot light up stuffed jellyfish sculpture in my basement, but I digress. So, I'm on the floor with paper towels and a vacuum after months of telling myself "I am not my things" and I'm throwing out old lunch boxes and cake mixes that we'll never make and my brain says:<br />
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"I'm no longer the caretaker of these things... My things should care-take me."<br />
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And then in this 45th year of my life... I had to come write it down.<br />
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Dannie cleaned their room and brought down a giant bag of garbage that I hauled out the curb on Wednesday. As I hauled it I'm pretty sure I heard dishes in there. Like dishes that had things growing in them because they'd sat too long on a dresser or on the nightstand without being washed. I decided I was not digging through the garbage to save a couple nasty bowls and then I realized that if I wasn't willing to do that then I was being as lazy as the 15 year old who threw them out. With that realization I shrugged my shoulders and knew I could not be upset with the teenager and put the clinking bag on the curb, clapped my hands like a blackjack dealer and walked away.<br /><br />***<br /><br />Jack showed me a game they made up at school with the four square set up on the pavement, it's a pretty cleaver game and my favorite part was when he explained that if you went outside of the square "You're out of bounce" I know it's not his fault he doesn't hear so well and so he mixes the way he hears things even in the third grade - but my goodness I find it adorable. Seriously. (I gotta write this stuff down more)<br /><br />***<br />
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Work has been moving at a break neck speed lately and for the first time I was able to hire a helper for a day. It has me in the mind of maybe paying for some professional services in general to finish some things around the house. I probably have a days worth of work for a handy man and really no time to get the things done myself. I always thought having people do your house things for you would be a sure sign you were successful, but really it just feels like I'm hanging on by the seat of my britches, barely finishing laundry in time to throw the slightly damp socks on and head out the door and that certainly doesn't feel successful.<br />
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I keep forgetting to water my plants. They'd been outside all summer. They're still hanging in there looking great. Best house plants ever.<br />
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The tip of my index finger is still numb from spray painting something about a month ago. Sometimes it tingles and I get pins and needles in it like it's waking up. I'm pretty bummed about it. I hope the numbness goes away.<br />
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It's just been a roller coaster of fantastic including drums and a birthday, fireworks, murals, mariachi bands, festivals, the Come and Go Motel Show, Glitter, book launches, skating, music videos, bike riding, George Clinton and the P-Funk, grilled cheeses in Chicago and Alt-J, Spoon, Tune Yards, a wedding, gardening, and giving. It's winding down this crazy summer, I'm looking forward to some giant art projects coming together and finishing up. We'll go camp at Willow Creek Folk Festival soon and then take a few days in St. Louis before school starts.<br />
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I know I always make this giant list of awesome and never hit any details of any of it. It's just all to fast. That's how it goes - when it's fun it goes very fast.<br />
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Jack and Thomas were playing hide an seek at the park tonight. I was wandering around in the clover field looking for 4 leafers and Thomas was pretending to run fast but actually going very slow and obvious so Jack could find him. Jack was pretending he couldn't see Thomas like an older kid does with a younger kid calling out"Wheeeeere's Thomas?! I just can't seem to find him!" as they circled the same tree; Thomas trying to get found and Jack trying not to find him; both of them playing to the other I took note and thought to myself "write this down." Both of them playing along for the other - it's just so sweet.Jennyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00137018447917798078noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-15348457.post-61755781998633114332018-06-27T23:53:00.003-05:002018-06-27T23:54:41.004-05:00a gross just gross and frustrating saga of gin and tonicSo we were on vacation and I put the garbage in the garage, and then I forgot to put it out the next week
so two weeks didn't go, today 3 weeks of garbage goes out. I drag three can out and wonder where grandpa had the kids shovel all that shit from the gutters? I realize they shoveled it into the recycle bin ON TOP of the recyclables... sooooo I decide it wont take much to just dump it in one of the bins marked with an X and then fish out the milk jugs from the overturned gutter-mulch.
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I grab the nearest square can with an X on it it's filled with rain water, I dump it. 2nd one filled with rain water,
I dump it. I see one already turned upside down and think "Hey someone was looking out for me and dumped the rainwater out from the last time it rained! Awesome!" I grab it and lift to flip it and there's a bag of garbage under it. It's smelly... really smelly. It's wriggling. (ew I KNOW!) I pick up the plastic handle to throw it back in the the now upright square can and the whole bottom drops out and wriggling garbage and juice splooshes all over my feet and shoes, rotten slimy chicken bones are all over the sidewalk (not mine even – I don't even eat meat)<br />
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I go back in to get a fresh garbage bag (the last one of course) and rubber gloves. I pick up all the garbage, throw the gloves in the bag and haul it out. Then know I should get the hose and hose off the sidewalk at now 11pm at night. I almost walked into a spiderweb ( A REALLY HUGE ONE!) did the almost walked into a spiderweb dance and instead took the long way to the other side of the house...no hose. I think it's still in the basement from when we fixed the hot water heater. Srsly. <br />
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I flipped the last can full of water onto the sidewalk hoping to wash away the smell. Now I just hope the raccoons will come eat any left over gross stuff I couldn't find in the dark, before morning, so I can let the dog out without her eating a bunch of it and getting sick. I put the mulch from the recyclables in a square, and now empty can, picked out the sour gallons of milk from the gutter-mulch and set them back in the blue bin. Went in the house and poured myself a gin and tonic and threw my shoes away.
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On the second floor, surrounded by children's books, we saw one kid who was sitting with her tutor at a tiny round table, in a tiny chair working at reading a tiny book, neither of them tried to steal a glance at us, even when we walked real close. We found some books about science experiments to do in the kitchen and briefly stared at a lone frog listlessly floating around in his tank on the librarians desk before we left.<br />
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We walked past two empty parks again and through a neighborhood filled with family homes standing silently in the sunny 74 degree day. Unfettered sprinklers, very plainly watered perfect lawns, with no body running through them. One kid rode his bike down the sidewalk behind his mom. As they passed, his mom said hello but he averted his eyes from ours and then they were gone as fast as they came. We scouted for sidewalk chalk art, finding none, we resorted to looking for lime-bikes, and feathers.<br />
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I haven't skated in two weeks because of my eye and so tonight I went and walked far and long and fast and I walked a hole in the bottom my my foot. Fuck blisters from shitty shoes.<br /><br />***<br />
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It's finally warm outside (ok a little hot in fact) and everyone has their AC cranked and I'm cold when I walk into places. Fuck overusing the AC.<br />
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<br />Fuck plastic bags. and straws and water bottles and all the other single use garbage bullshit people toss. <br />
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<br />Jennyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00137018447917798078noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-15348457.post-38785310961592838552018-05-02T20:12:00.000-05:002018-05-09T17:05:33.931-05:00RainI dragged all those things I didn't need anymore to the curb in a futile attempt to beat the rain. That cool shower smelled like new roots and soggy worms, replacing an itchy day that wasn't ready and went nowhere. It made me lighter to let things go while wet drops hit my cheeks.Jennyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00137018447917798078noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-15348457.post-55552840082630254592018-02-13T23:34:00.000-06:002018-02-13T23:35:55.955-06:00It's the CopsSaturday morning I awoke to the persistent sort of knock on my front door that only police deliver. I pulled on whatever was at the top of the pile and ran down the stairs in a haze to in find one police woman shivering and pounding on my front door. The city snow plow hit my car. Broke the break light and then put a hefty gouge all the way up the length of the poor old Grand Marquis Mark. It still drives, but the window doesn't roll up or down at all now and it looks like hell. I'm hoping the city will send me a nice check in the amount of enough for a newer cruddy old car but this one with heated seats and blue tooth and front wheel drive. Maybe even something that will fit in small spaces and not use much gasoline.Jennyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00137018447917798078noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-15348457.post-20275342836351568822018-02-07T00:07:00.000-06:002019-03-17T17:14:15.600-05:00ThankfulnessI've had some days of frustration lately and I started to make a list of things that went wrong. It was a good icky list but then I decided that was the wrong direction. Now it's time for a list of lovely things and things I love.<br />
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Grilled Cheeses<br />
People who buy art<br />
Citrus smelling stuff<br />
Cardio until my lungs hurt<br />
People who make great art<br />
Food cooked for me by other people<br />
Dancing<br />
Healthy kids<br />
Heated car seats<br />
Watching Broad City<br />
Unexpected checks in the mail<br />
Finding jeans that fit<br />
Sitting right in front of the heater<br />
Sleeping in<br />
Foot rubs<br />
Binge watching Madmen<br />
Money<br />
This song<br />
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<iframe allowfullscreen="" frameborder="0" height="270" src="https://www.youtube.com/embed/2rmHJmBaANI" width="480"></iframe>Jennyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00137018447917798078noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-15348457.post-90799959714046896772018-01-29T15:48:00.001-06:002018-01-29T15:48:35.626-06:00The Day After We Attended a Royal Rumble Pay Per View Party. "Mom, if I was a wrestler I'd be Smacker McSmacker, and I'd just keep smacking people in the face" ...commence Jack pantomiming super fast face smacking.Jennyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00137018447917798078noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-15348457.post-69681213919086454662018-01-29T09:39:00.000-06:002018-01-29T09:39:53.539-06:00Is it Summer Yet? I'm longing for warm summer night. There was this time when I was a kid and we lived on the south side that my Dad and his pals would play Frisbee in the street in front of our house. They'd be out there with a beer in one hand and skipping that disk off the street looking smooth. Mostly us kids would be catching lightning bugs or playing tag in the yard. Sometimes I think I remember sitting on the curb and being super happy when someone caught the Frisbee under their knee. I think there may have been a radio somewhere - in my head there's a soundtrack to this scene with maybe Slow Ride and Rocket Man and probably some Stones. These guys with their messy long hair and cut offs, sometimes with a short cigarette carefully shifting from hand to mouth just long enough to take a drag and return the throw. <br /><br />
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<br />Jennyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00137018447917798078noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-15348457.post-750013580567917032018-01-15T22:43:00.001-06:002018-01-15T22:46:03.397-06:00Art Institute of ChicagoI took the kids into see art today. We started in the modern wing - mostly because that's where the valet parking was but also because we've been interested in modern. I've been participating in abstract night at the studio and the kids have done some at school and in an outside art class. We all seem to be a little enchanted by it. Piet Mondrain is near the top my list of very favorites but later in another wing I was reminded how much I loved Edward Hopper and then I saw all the Renaissance stuff and forgot all about abstract. I could spend years there and just stand around loving everything the best, for a slice of time. <br />
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Everyone at the art museum is pretty. Everyone is dressed like they're going to something important, some folks are speaking other languages. Nobody is yelling at their children, they are all leaned over teaching their kids about art and history and asking each other's opinions. A whole day of looking at art museum goers made me feel wretched in my snow boots and my smelly, stained up shirt. My youngest got car sick on the way into the museum and I of course put my hands out and caught all the barfs instead of letting is spew all over our driver's back seat. There was no way to turn around and drive home so we pushed on, ducking into the bathroom right away and washing up and then standing under the hair dryer for a minute. Then I went on to spend the day looking outward and thinking about technique and colors as well as being on high alert for more sickness that never came. It wasn't until I was getting a little overwrought with all the looking at art that I turned my attention to the people and then lastly myself. sigh. Then I just wanted to be somewhere else and that was perfect because we left.<br />
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On the way home we saw smoke on the highway for miles and drover past a semi-truck on fire, like 20-foot flames and black smoke. No body barfed, some of the kids slept. It was a crazy grey and sleepy ride home. <br />
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<br />Jennyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00137018447917798078noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-15348457.post-71675949944440448042018-01-08T07:39:00.002-06:002018-01-08T07:40:34.799-06:00Half Way Halfway Down <br />
By A. A. Milne <br />
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Halfway down the stairs <br />
Is a stair <br />
Where I sit. <br />
There isn't any <br />
Other stair <br />
Quite like <br />
It. <br />
I'm not at the bottom, <br />
I'm not at the top; <br />
So this is the stair <br />
Where <br />
I always <br />
Stop. <br />
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Halfway up the stairs <br />
Isn't up <br />
And it isn't down. <br />
It isn't in the nursery, <br />
It isn't in town. <br />
And all sorts of funny thoughts <br />
Run round my head. <br />
It isn't really <br />
Anywhere! <br />
It's somewhere else <br />
Instead! <br />
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About half way through every project, I hate what I'm doing. It's not turning out how I had it in my head and I've looked at it too long, it's feeling overworked and I want to literally kick it across the room. Once I let go of what I thought it was going to be, finish and fix what I have, it usually turns out pretty good.<br />
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Hello 2018! Let's do better than last year.<br /><br />***Jennyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00137018447917798078noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-15348457.post-54322310163313722392017-12-26T11:23:00.001-06:002017-12-26T11:23:54.627-06:00Tuesday at the End of December Brain DumpIt's super cold today. I never did get the storm windows into the house and so I really can't get the heat up over 62 today. I'm pretty sure if I was a landlord I'd be getting yelled at about it, but the kids are visiting with their dad this week and I just put an extra sweater on until my dad gets here and we try to get the screens out and the windows in with our frozen fingers. <br /><br />***<br />
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I loved 2017.<br /><br />***<br />
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I think I only saw one movie this year at the theater. Wonder woman. I loved it.<br /><br />***<br />
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I missed a whole movement of new music during the last decade, that I really like and as a result I'm consuming it as fast as I can with ferocity. It's been loud at my house for the last few months. I don't know why I wasn't listening to anything. I'm surmising the part of my brain that liked music was numb, I thought it was all over, everything good had been sung and listened to ad nauseum. Most of the things I liked had been abandoned after my divorce, literally and figuratively. This year I discovered new things I love. It's so good and unexpected and powerful. Sometimes I have to turn a song off because it makes my chest hurt, other times impromptu dance breaks. Welcome back to the music lobe in my brain!<br /><br />***<br /><br />Thomas bought me a turn of the century upright grand piano. I like to sit at it and pound out melodies on the keys in a super monotonous way. I'm sure the neighbors are horrified. <br /><br />***<br /><br />
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I'm going to make some paintings on black velvet in January. I hope the technique isn't that different from starting with a black canvas. I'm super excited - I'd like to start today but need to get wood and velvet and it's -17<span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: "Helvetica Neue", Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 21px;">° </span>today and I haven't started my car in three days. Soooo, maybe I'll get out after we get the windows in and get supplies. It's actually an idea time to stretch canvases - when the kids aren't here. <br /><br />***<br />
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<br />Jennyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00137018447917798078noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-15348457.post-39770502524562606592017-08-24T21:22:00.001-05:002017-08-24T21:22:50.809-05:00Stranger Danger OnlineWhen I got home tonight the kid had left the computer on while logged into her e-mail. I sat down and before I could log her off I did a cursory scan of the subject lines of the emails looking for red flags, sex, drugs, and general teenage stupidity. I saw something about a hotel and of course clicked it. <br />
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Aunt Lauren was inviting the kid and 15 other people to stay all at the same hotel for the wedding last spring. And then Harvey invited the kid and a bunch of other relatives to Easter dinner. Next was a bunch about Esther's 90th birthday and who was going to fly in for that? Lastly there was a bunch of e-mails containing corny jokes about electricians from cousin Eric. I rolled the mouse back through a couple of years of correspondence from people I've never heard of.<br />
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Let me be clear, we are not related to an Aunt Laren, Harvey, Esther or Eric.<br />
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I called the kid downstairs to explain. <br />
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"Do you have a second family you've been hiding? Who are these people? Do you have a Grandma Esther I don't know about?"<br />
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"No! I don't know who these people are but they keep sending me emails and photos! I don't even read my e-mail unless I see it's from myself!"<br />
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Apparently this is how she moves artwork from one account to the desktop computer but her account has been infiltrated by a very nice family who would like us to know that Shirl's baby is getting baptized and Uncle Carl had a very nice time at the Lake. I clicked though a few more and they're sent from people's work complete with job titles and companies and phone numbers to perfectly normal occupations, so I think it checks out. It's not some weird roll playing fan fiction world the kid and her hipster pals are playing where peach jello molds, mom jeans and ridiculously boring puns are all of a sudden cool.<br />
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I'm not even sure how to feel about this. It occurs to me that the family might think that one cousin who never replies is a "real wet rag". I'm pretty sure that's how they'd say it in hushed tones.Jennyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00137018447917798078noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-15348457.post-61439366644647800872017-08-24T15:09:00.000-05:002017-08-24T15:09:40.592-05:00Anita MacRae Feagles and The Tooth FairyAnita MacRae Feagles wrote and illustrated The Tooth Fairy. I checked out the little hard cover book from the Rockford Public Library more than any other book. In my thirties when my first child lost her first tooth I became obsessed with finding this tiny book again and hadn't a clue who wrote or illustrated it I just remembered the fairy illustrations and how the book made me feel all happy about loosing my teeth. I google searched through thousands of images over several weeks until I found it. <br />
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I get that little book out and read it on the very night The Tooth Fairy will visit our house, just before bed. We'll read it tonight. It's simple and charming and it's The Tooth Fairy I've always known my whole life. She's a city fairy. She has a house and a job and throws parties and I imagine she drives a little hatch back car when she's not traveling by magic. Some of these facts weren't in the book they were just part of what I imagined in my head.<br />
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"Anita MacRae Feagles, of Vero Beach, Fla., and Fishers Island, N.Y.,
died on March 14 2008, with her husband, Robert Feagles, at her side.
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She was born in Chicago, the only child of Cuyler and Anita MacRae.
She was raised in Chappaqua, N.Y. She received a bachelor's degree
from Knox College in Galesburg, Ill., where she was a member of the Pi
Beta Phi sorority, and an master's in education at City College of New
York. She was a member of the Junior League of Mt. Kisco, N.Y.
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Following her marriage to Robert Feagles, an international banker, she
lived for two years in San Juan, Puerto Rico, before they returned to
Chappaqua. She had four children and became a prolific writer,
publishing 20 books, mostly for children. She accompanied her husband
on numerous international trips, and was able to do research in
Mexico, England, Spain and Iceland, which led to books set there.
They lived in London for two years, and later moved to Hartford. They
have also maintained a residence on Fishers Island for over 25 years.
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She is survived by her husband and three children, Cuyler, of
Freeport, Maine, Priscilla Hammond, of Lyme, and Patrick, of Vero
Beach. Her oldest daughter, Wendy Harwood, predeceased her. She also
leaves behind seven grandchildren and three great-grandchildren.
In addition to writing, she worked as an ombudsman in the Connecticut
prison system, as instructor in English at Indian River Community
College, and as a Guardian Ad Litem in the Florida 19th District Court
System.<br /><br />Memorial contributions can be made to the Humane Society of Vero
Beach, PO Box 644, Vero Beach, FL 32961 in memory of Mrs. Feagles." <br />
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Jennyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00137018447917798078noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-15348457.post-21884469718775607242017-08-23T09:31:00.001-05:002017-08-23T09:31:42.435-05:00When School StartedBoth kids are in school all day. This is their third day back. Nobody started a new school or is doing anything different really from last year. I'm sitting here thinking I forgot something. I'm waiting for someone to ask me where their sock is or if I'd help them pour the milk. I have a ton of work to do and the house still isn't straightened up from the summer activities. Still I am wistfully sad the summer is done. I just can't get enough of their cute faces and the way they play with the dog and are constantly making things. This afternoon when everyone is off the buss and I'm trying to carve out a moment of quiet among the hustle and bustle, I'm sure I wont remember the longing from this morning, but perhaps I'll be more patient when digging through the laundry and mopping up milk. Life moves too fast.Jennyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00137018447917798078noreply@blogger.com0